How I have been blackmailed to write

yup.. its true.. I have been blackmailed to write a new post as soon as possible.. and I was told that if I don't come up with a new post at earliest then I should be ready to face dire consequences... what are those dire consequences... will talk about it later in the post...

You people must have heard of various type of blackmails.. which includes.. threat to life.. kidnapping.. emotinal atyachar from near and dear ones.. another kind would be using "tears" to blackmail.. but my dear friends.. lemme tell u.. this one was none of above.. no emotional atyachar.. nothing.. but a type.. where that person simply asked me, with some "kiddo type" smileys which otherwise look like "angry face", to come up with something new or I should stop talking to that person...

Now a person like me who has got soft heart like a Kid... would surely get scared of these "Dhamkissss".. bacche ko toh koi bhi dara deta hai.. toh mein bhi dar gaya.. and started writing a new post..

But despite of being blackmailed.. I felt good.. that somehow few sane or insane people like my posts.. so they want me to write something new..more frequently.. its good.. isn't it.. ?? :P

Also.. that blackmailing would help me come out of writer's block.. yeah.. I know.. I have been using this term every now and then in my posts when I post something new after a long time.. but honestly speaking... there was so much that happened around me since my last post.. I just couldn't find words to describe those moments.. be it final exams of life.. (if I don't sit for civil services :P ) or be it last moment masti with friends.. or be it dancing wildly for the last time.. (in corporate u can't dance like that.. :P) or be it sad moments of saying good bye to someone who were closest to you in last two years.. all those moments.. all those things.. I just couldn't describe them in words...

Well... blackmailing always is not a bad thing.. as I always feel that normally persons who cares for you.. blackmail you for your good only.. (PS: I am not generalizing the statement.. its just an observation.. :)).. sometimes blackmailing from someone closer to u act as a motivating factor to do something which you were reluctant to do for a long time..

so, friends happy blackmailing to your near and dear ones.. ofcourse for their well being only.. :) till next time.. keep smiling.. :)

Afraid of Failures??

Failure...a word from which we all are afraid off...since our childhood till the time we will die.. we all are scared of failures.. we don't want to get fail in any of our endeavors in life.. we don't want anything wrong happen to us.. may be sometimes under pressure.. both societal..and family pressures..or may be because we all want good good things everywhere around us.. recently few questions baffled me.. why we were always told in our childhood.. work hard..don't get fail...'.. why during our primary and middle classes..we always used to see the person who scored less in the class with the hatred eyes.. why we were asked not to be in company of those who fails...why we always try to keep an option open... if not this.. then this.. took science.. just because all other streams are open after this.. can go to any place..did mechanical engineering... land in IT company why.. why not wait for mechanical company to turn up.. coz we afraid of not getting job later on.. well Why MBA ?? Why Not M.Tech.. just to be under bigger umbrella..?? now we are techno managers..?? we are open to almost any field..??. jack of all suites..?? or I should say.. we are afraid of getting beaten on our a****

have we ever thought of this..that not being failed or if I rephrase my words.. by keeping all options open.. we actually diminished our capabilities of trying something out of the box.. we actually.. don't like to try something new.. on a funny side.. most of us just don't propose to a girl.. just because we are afraid of being neglected.. or being getting slapped.. ;) .. or we are afraid that we will be humiliated by our friends.. :P ..

There are different categories of people afraid of getting failed..

1. People who afraid of being 2nd... - This is the cream category of any group of people doing something in common... I know most of the persons.. who even cribs about getting second.. ya i know 'its worst to be at second place.. then at the last place.." but scared of that.. cribbing for that.. If i quote one of my friends when he was rejected in a company interview..then it would be a perfect example of people getting scared of being second.. in his words.. " yaar..tension ho jati hai.. mein hamesha pehli co. mein hi select ho jata hoon.. I always get selected in first company..".. well well well.. going for 2nd category...

2. People who afraid of being last... - This is the most common category.. and we all must have experience fear of this.. last is very bad.. no one think last is good.. even I am afraid of being last.. even in last mid sem exam when I got second lowest marks..I thanked god..that I didn't score last.. and I don't know what difference it could make.. anyways... going to last and third category..

3. People who afraid of getting failed continuously.. - well.. this category is very rarerly seen.. coz.. most of the people I have seen in this category don't care about what's happening around.. they just enjoy their life like that.. only few persons have that potential to keep on trying until they ultimately reach what they want to achieve.. but as I say.. they are really very rare..

Sometimes I feel.. that getting failed is not bad... its even good which gives u one instance that teaches u that one can't get everything you desired of.. or even u worked for.. and believe me.. success follows failure.. and success means more when comes after a failure..

PS: I am not saying that getting failed is utmost necessary.. or one should not try to keep options open.. but one should at least try to get what he has longed for.. what he has in his mind for years.. what makes him feel better.. what he proudly can speak of for rest of his life.. just a try in the direction that fascinates you........

before concluding the blog.. I would like to extend my thanks to my very good friend.. discussion with whom led me to write on this topic.. after a long gap... till next time.. bbye.. :)

Afraid of Failures??

Failure...a word from which we all are afraid off...since our childhood till the time we will die.. we all are scared of failures.. we don't want to get fail in any of our endeavors in life.. we don't want anything wrong happen to us.. may be sometimes under pressure.. both societal..and family pressures..or may be because we all want good good things everywhere around us.. recently few questions baffled me.. why we were always told in our childhood.. work hard..don't get fail...'.. why during our primary and middle classes..we always used to see the person who scored less in the class with the hatred eyes.. why we were asked not to be in company of those who fails...why we always try to keep an option open... if not this.. then this.. took science.. just because all other streams are open after this.. can go to any place..did mechanical engineering... land in IT company why.. why not wait for mechanical company to turn up.. coz we afraid of not getting job later on.. well Why MBA ?? Why Not M.Tech.. just to be under bigger umbrella..?? now we are techno managers..?? we are open to almost any field..??. jack of all suites..?? or I should say.. we are afraid of getting beaten on our a****

have we ever thought of this..that not being failed or if I rephrase my words.. by keeping all options open.. we actually diminished our capabilities of trying something out of the box.. we actually.. don't like to try something new.. on a funny side.. most of us just don't propose to a girl.. just because we are afraid of being neglected.. or being getting slapped.. ;) .. or we are afraid that we will be humiliated by our friends.. :P ..

There are different categories of people afraid of getting failed..

1. People who afraid of being 2nd... - This is the cream category of any group of people doing something in common... I know most of the persons.. who even cribs about getting second.. ya i know 'its worst to be at second place.. then at the last place.." but scared of that.. cribbing for that.. If i quote one of my friends when he was rejected in a company interview..then it would be a perfect example of people getting scared of being second.. in his words.. " yaar..tension ho jati hai.. mein hamesha pehli co. mein hi select ho jata hoon.. I always get selected in first company..".. well well well.. going for 2nd category...

2. People who afraid of being last... - This is the most common category.. and we all must have experience fear of this.. last is very bad.. no one think last is good.. even I am afraid of being last.. even in last mid sem exam when I got second lowest marks..I thanked god..that I didn't score last.. and I don't know what difference it could make.. anyways... going to last and third category..

3. People who afraid of getting failed continuously.. - well.. this category is very rarerly seen.. coz.. most of the people I have seen in this category don't care about what's happening around.. they just enjoy their life like that.. only few persons have that potential to keep on trying until they ultimately reach what they want to achieve.. but as I say.. they are really very rare..

Sometimes I feel.. that getting failed is not bad... its even good which gives u one instance that teaches u that one can't get everything you desired of.. or even u worked for.. and believe me.. success follows failure.. and success means more when comes after a failure..

PS: I am not saying that getting failed is utmost necessary.. or one should not try to keep options open.. but one should at least try to get what he has longed for.. what he has in his mind for years.. what makes him feel better.. what he proudly can speak of for rest of his life.. just a try in the direction that fascinates you........

before concluding the blog.. I would like to extend my thanks to my very good friend.. discussion with whom led me to write on this topic.. after a long gap... till next time.. bbye.. :)

Blabbering this time...

Today, I feel like.. I should write.. write till the point..my feelings are expressed thoroughly.. point till my fingers get tired.. point till i feel like satisfied.. today.. i don't want to think while writing..I don't want to care for words...I just gonna write..what ever comes in mind.. my heart.. and what ever my fingers want to type.. and this is not going to have another review after writing as well...

what the hell..it seems like I am disappointed..disappointed by the way I am treated..disappointed by the way I treat others.. disappointed by the way I am surviving in this world..disappointed by lot many other ways.. but should I be disappointed.. or should I fight back for the things that I deserve.. should I prove someone who I am.. I know some of you may say.. that u are much better than anyone else.. u need not prove anyone about you.. you should be happy what you are.. and not what you want to become.. and blah..blah.. but I am not in mood to ask anyone what is in their mind.. I just want to express myself.. so please pardon me.. if anyone feels like I am arrogant... and yes..i have become quite arrogant these days.. no.. not because I am on seventh sky.. but because situation around me has asked me to change myself.. situation around me has asked me to become little more egoistic.. though..I am becoming more and more egoistic as the time is passing...

you know...I feel like I should talk with someone..to express myself..to get that burden off my heart.. but when I look around.. i find noone..to whom I can express myself.. noone..to whom I can talk freely.. ya there are few..but I care for them so much that I don't want to bother them any more on such issues.. they have done enough for me in mah life.. they were there with me..when noone else was there... so the only option left to me to express myself and get back to life is writing.. ya writing..which sometime back was my passion.. has now become my need.. a need to survive..and u know why I find noone..to whom I can talk.. because around me I find more of admirers rather than friends...seems quite amazing na??.. and to tell u the truth .. I am still confused.. what should I do now onwards..should I let the things go as I used to do till 3 years ago..or should I save my self-esteem...(PS: I am talking of self esteem and not ego...)

NOw most of you thinking..that why there are admirers only...or I am exaggerating the issue...may be.. but when I am sitting idle with nothing happening around me..the so called little things also seems big...and fyi.. I know myself enough..that I don't express myself so easily.. and that too on a public forum.. forget this.. while writing this blog.. I am still thinking who all are going to read this particular post.. as I am not going to update this post on anyother place.. just to one who are followers and to whom emails are being sent... well..the conservative or reserved me.. still scared deep inside to reveal about me...may be because..I am afraid of the world around me.. or being a little personal one.. I just can't reveal my thoughts, my feelings to anyone...who can't care for these...

well friends.. I don't know what should I do now..I was writing just to express myself..but somewhere deep inside..I still think I should not bother even to those who are reading this..well..in the end.. I would just like to say..that those who are reading this..are the one who are really close to me...and I am thankful to everyone of them...I know without you people my life would be quite difficult...you are the one who gave me strength everytime I needed it..and this time too, indirectly though, I am finding you people with a helping hand...

thanks...and don't you people worry about me..its just a blog...if I really need anyone of you.. I know most of you are just a call away :) ... keep smiling... and take care..:)

is this a MBA or MBA - Most Boring Academics??

I know it seems to be a vague question from my side.. that too when there are just 3 months left for the completion of whole course known as MBA... but this question really abruptly shook my mind...when I was trying to sleep last night...(kuch jyada hi jaldi puch liya na maine yeh question?? :P)..

well..Its Tuesday, a week day.. and I am in my hostel room started another vacations.. with no classes through out the week virtually...ya..you can call it another vacation...(last one was when I had last week completely off ) and again this week eventually turned out to be completely off with only major class which was scheduled got canceled.... and I wonder...being in IIT - (ok you can call this an IIT not by its action but by its name.. :)).. what m doing out here... lying in hostel room...sleeping...movies...etc... or most of the immaterial things... (for most of us..these are the only material things.. :P)...

and seriouslly telling this is the most boring session...here, the only motivation to wake up early in the morning.. is the breakfast in Mess... the only purpose of attending class is to get attendance.. though for few of us.. it also doesn't matter.... the only purpose to study is to get at least 6 sgpa... (though there are few..who are working hard to be another 9 pointer in history of this college.. :P :D).... the only purpose u r staying in hostel that u can't travel daily to your hometown..and come back again....

The classes which happen are just the repeatation which we did in last 3 sem... why the hell we have 4th sem..if it is going to be the repeatation of one and the same thing again and again... couldn't we have anything better to study...and most of the classes look like a fiction movie going on.. from "Harry potter" to "Dada ji ki Kahaniyan" sab hain yahan... (jyada nahi bolunga..in movies ke bare mein.. :P).. the another awful thing which can happen in this last sem.. that most of the projects have to be completed alone...when you got habitual of working in groups..you are asked to work alone...and that too with overloaded work... jab kam karne ki iccha thi..jab toh karne nahi diya... ab iccha khatam.. ab karwalo kam...

The only benefit of this sem is to them who have boyfriend/girlfriend right here in the college and secured good job as well.. they can enjoy their time very well here... :P .. and those who have their better half.. out of this place.. they must be cursing this place more than I am doing at this time... :)

well m just waiting for this sem to end...which will lead me to a new phase of life..with new view points...and with new experiences hovering all over my mind....

till next time...keep smiling.. :)

Finally.. the sun is beating down...

Yup..in the midst of night.. after a long gap of 3 months and 11 days.. I am trying to come out of a writers' block (a new term which I have learnt few days ago) and writing a new post... and again.. this is not on any MBA topic..(my wish of writing on MBA topic is not again granted by circumstances around me..) and ya..I am writing this blog in half sleep at 1:30 AM in the night.. with the topic "Sun is beating down.."(seems quite ironical..).. don't worry I had not any dream..where I saw sun or something flashy.. its just the series of events which happened in last month or so.. are the positive events coming over negativity of life... :).. like the rays of sun getting rid of darkness of night.. :) .. and all these events had been a learning experience in one way or other... like the reconcilliation with old friends...getting 7 point CG first time in life of DoMS..(though difficult for me to believe this.. :P).. and finally getting placed in $5.5 billion company called HCL... and more over.. in the chilly and foggy season of December..and half of january... Sun started beating down on earth to get over those unbearable conditions...


journey to HCL is one of the greatest odyssey of my life.. ya I call it an odyssey only after getting kicked out of 4 companies in series... (or rather I say.. all companies were in great loss for not taking me.. though I reached to every interview after clearing first round of GDs etc.. :).... I sat for fifth one as well.. the HCL.. with all hope shattered.. HCL gave another shock of holding a GD as a selection process. as original me.. I am unaware of any current affairs... and this time GD was among 15 students of class... with all the surmas of communication skills in class was in my group...

The topic of GD add to the difficulty.. when the facilitator asked to choose the topic among us only... and one of my friends asked for current affairs.... all eyes in the GD room was just pointing to that one person only... well everything is fair in love and war.. and this was war at that time...


so the topic was.............."oh.. i forgot the topic".. well it was something related to 600 million insurance done by ESPN star sports for the Cricket world cup 2011... I was even not aware of any such news.. the one minute which was given to think on the topic.. i was thinking why the hell on this earth someone choose current affair topic rather than any abstract topic.. which is much easier to express in ur words.. well... one minute passed away... and to my luck the first person who spoke set the base perfectly....and another person.. adding honey to the bread...making it more delicious... and one more person and so on..... everyone was in favor of topic...I went against the topic...the only point I raised was against the tide of the group... (ya..i know people curse me for this bad habit..but it is me..original me.. going against the tide...projects at DoMS tried hard but even they can't help this out completely though :P and I never regret this fact..)..

well the point raised did its work once again...and was selected for interview round...once again...another company...another pre-selection criteria..satisfied...another first round...all things were on the same line...as the last 4 companies were...(another worst part of an odyssey... when one step shows u the way another step pulls u back..).. well..considering the past experiences...I did not prepare anything for this interview..I was already pre occupied with the thoughts of last 4 companies...and considering myself unlucky...I was just chilling out there with all other friends sitting for the company...and once again I am in the last 4 of the interviewees..i knew..its gonna be difficult for me...but I paid no heed to the process....and try to flow with the process.... interview happened..and there I was true and fair to myself...to the interviewers...and to the moment.... :)...I know as a general rule..you have to lie at one place or other...but here truthfulness comes handy... :)

well another shock was waiting...results were not declared the same day... rather postponed for a day...(odyssey..sighsss)..well with no hope...and no chances..I was selected but with another shock..."HCL gonna have HR interview round".." bas lag gayi watt apni toh...HR round..and that too with me..."...jitne bhi interviews barbaad huye the isse pehle..woh sab majorly HR ki wajeh se hi huye the..ab ek aur HR... chalo this time I moved little forward...cleared 2nd round as well.... after this shock..another sweet news came in the morning when..one of the friends said.."Mayank..its gonna formality round only..where u will be asked few basic questions.."..


at that point.. i thought its all over now...but no..it wasn't..when I landed in Noida for HR interview...the complete formal HR round was waiting for us...or rather I should say we were waiting for that HR round to happen...ya..its HCL..who made us wait for 3 hrs before the first HR personnel came and see us...(I sometimes wonder..how 2 minutes can turn out to be 20 minutes for a person...and that too in $5.5 billion company....
)..the thing I hated the most...they were making me doing that.."the wait"...naukri ke liye insaan ko kya kya nahi karna padta.... khair..with the positivity that its gonna 10 mins job for 3 of us...(3 were selected for final HR..).. it all shattered..when first interview took 25 mins....

and the voice came..."Mayank Jain"...it was my turn...with all the wishes I was carrying...I entered the room...another shock.. I detest giving interviews to lady HR...and there were two of them. (though..none of them is worth looking at but still they are HR you have to look at them.. :P )..the perfect odyssey..well..I settled down..and questions started firing over me...one after another...stress testing was there...karlo..ek mechanical engineer ke saath stress testing..woh bhi karlo...as I said earlier..I was truthful there in the first interview.. i was truthful in the second interview as well... "jo hoga dekha jayega..".. was my attitude...and spoke what came to my mind..without even thinking for a single second on any questions but one...that was a trick question and I had to think for that...somewhat that was technical question...from a HR person...


well another annoying fact...after all interviews were happened we are asked to wait for 5 minutes..and that 5 minutes were turning out to be 50 mins before we cut short and asked the receptionist to call "Saloni" ,the HR which were taking care of our campus hiring procedure, and let us know the status...she came with answer..."ur result will be declared later in the day to ur placement coordinator"... wah wah...after 4 days and 5 hrs. since the results were declared..we came out of the building..looking like fool...cursing HCL...thought..chalo ok its gonna over in next few hrs only..but it didn't happen until next evening...

the other ironical event happened when most of my class mates knew in afternoon only..that i was selected...but to me it came in evening...chalo ji..after 2 months since the first company came to our department..I was finally through..finally there is sun beating down after the dark night.. this event is followed by another event when surprisingly a old time friend called me...the next day..which is followed by sun rays taking away chilly foggy season of the year..

This experience at HCL for me was a good learning..that nothing in life can be easily achieved... u have to work harder to overcome the difficulty one after another.. anyways..I thank to all those who prayed for me..who wished me luck..and who were with me through out this odyssey :)

post thoda sa lamba ho gaya...lekin ab itne time baad likhoonga.. toh thoda sa lamba banta hai.. :P

The Economics of Love

Hello Friends.. As told in my previous post...This is my last blog on subject matter known as Love.. well actually my fascination towards economics and finance is so much that I can't hold myself putting these subjects in Love also..however, this is a different issue that I don't know much about both the subjects :P :).. and some how I was thinking to put it before my mid sem exam I so that first year students of our department at least understand few fundas of economics by this means only... :P

well topic might seem little to some of you.. but the content shows the completely true analogy between Economics and Love... For the readers who do not know about economics much.... lemme give you little idea about "Supply - Demand" equation in Economics... consider the following image...




The left graph shows the affect of change in demand of the particular product... and right one shows the affect of change in price... In left graph.. if demand is increased from DD to D'D' the price on SS line increases...if I say in general slang.. uska bhav bad gaya.. similarly in right one if you increase the price...demand decreases... so simple..isn't it??? Now just change the product with Love/care you show to someone...

If you start demanding love of someone more than a equilibrum point, that person start showing faltoo ka bhav... us bande/bandi ke nakhre bad jate hain...he/she start thinking that he/she is everything as demand is increasing...

Similarly... if you stop caring about someone... if you stop showing love to someone...in other words if you decrease the demand... the attitude of opposite person takes the downward path.... the quantum of upmove or downmove depends on the slope of both the lines...which can be analogized as the nature of person or the resistance of a person towards different types of emotional atyachaar....... :(

The moral of the story is that if you have to show someone your importance...you have to shift from the equilibrium point in the downward direction... you have to decrease the demand..and I must say..that this is the only option.. I never understood..why this is the only option... but somehow.. this is what I have seen in most of the cases... you just can't think of price reduction if Demand keeps on increasing..or vice versa... Somehow this funda of economics working both in tangible products as well in love...which is quite a sad part of any relationship....or specially relationships which are younger in nature... and i can't understand the reason of this till date... I am still looking for answer of "Why".....

Well, these views may not comprehend your experiences...but generally this is what is seen...and what is experienced by most of us... as always.. ur views are welcome...and as promised... no more LOVE on my blog... at least till I fall (rise) in love with someone... :P :) Next blog most probably be on movie "Dabaang"..till then bbye...keep smiling all... :)