Today, I feel like.. I should write.. write till the point..my feelings are expressed thoroughly.. point till my fingers get tired.. point till i feel like satisfied.. today.. i don't want to think while writing..I don't want to care for words...I just gonna write..what ever comes in mind.. my heart.. and what ever my fingers want to type.. and this is not going to have another review after writing as well...
what the hell..it seems like I am disappointed..disappointed by the way I am treated..disappointed by the way I treat others.. disappointed by the way I am surviving in this world..disappointed by lot many other ways.. but should I be disappointed.. or should I fight back for the things that I deserve.. should I prove someone who I am.. I know some of you may say.. that u are much better than anyone else.. u need not prove anyone about you.. you should be happy what you are.. and not what you want to become.. and blah..blah.. but I am not in mood to ask anyone what is in their mind.. I just want to express myself.. so please pardon me.. if anyone feels like I am arrogant... and yes..i have become quite arrogant these days.. no.. not because I am on seventh sky.. but because situation around me has asked me to change myself.. situation around me has asked me to become little more egoistic.. though..I am becoming more and more egoistic as the time is passing...
you know...I feel like I should talk with someone..to express myself..to get that burden off my heart.. but when I look around.. i find noone..to whom I can express myself.. noone..to whom I can talk freely.. ya there are few..but I care for them so much that I don't want to bother them any more on such issues.. they have done enough for me in mah life.. they were there with me..when noone else was there... so the only option left to me to express myself and get back to life is writing.. ya writing..which sometime back was my passion.. has now become my need.. a need to survive..and u know why I find noone..to whom I can talk.. because around me I find more of admirers rather than friends...seems quite amazing na??.. and to tell u the truth .. I am still confused.. what should I do now onwards..should I let the things go as I used to do till 3 years ago..or should I save my self-esteem...(PS: I am talking of self esteem and not ego...)
NOw most of you thinking..that why there are admirers only...or I am exaggerating the issue...may be.. but when I am sitting idle with nothing happening around me..the so called little things also seems big...and fyi.. I know myself enough..that I don't express myself so easily.. and that too on a public forum.. forget this.. while writing this blog.. I am still thinking who all are going to read this particular post.. as I am not going to update this post on anyother place.. just to one who are followers and to whom emails are being sent... well..the conservative or reserved me.. still scared deep inside to reveal about me...may be because..I am afraid of the world around me.. or being a little personal one.. I just can't reveal my thoughts, my feelings to anyone...who can't care for these...
well friends.. I don't know what should I do now..I was writing just to express myself..but somewhere deep inside..I still think I should not bother even to those who are reading this..well..in the end.. I would just like to say..that those who are reading this..are the one who are really close to me...and I am thankful to everyone of them...I know without you people my life would be quite difficult...you are the one who gave me strength everytime I needed it..and this time too, indirectly though, I am finding you people with a helping hand...
thanks...and don't you people worry about me..its just a blog...if I really need anyone of you.. I know most of you are just a call away :) ... keep smiling... and take care..:)
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- Mayank Jain
- I am like an open book...any one can read me...but no one can understand me..... :)
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
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Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
A writer's view of love..
This topic does not seems to be real me...before starting there was lot of dilemma in my mind whether to write on this topic or not...but as few said...this is one of the easiest topic to pick...and few said...u can't write until u feel it...I thought of taking this up and pouring what all i can pour at this place...
well love...as far as I know about love...there are very rare instances where true love exists..and I am still to come across such couple who are deeply and truly in love with each other....and please mind my words..I am talking of love and not infatuation... infatuation is something which u can have anytime in life with anyone... when u r in school u can have infatuation on your class teacher... while in class any beautiful gal/handsome boy may grab your attention... ;)
Well coming on to the topic..A writer's view of love..one question came to my mind....can I write about love?? as earlier mentioned..my few friends has motivated me to write on this topic...and few says u can't write as u have never felt it... quite confused...i questioned them... "Is love a topic to discuss or a feeling which can not be described???"they can't answer...and I don't know till date...just trying to find the answer by the way of blog only...lemme put my few observations about love...and the end results of the same...
first of all lemme define definition of love in two different perspective...
L - Lake of Sorrows.............................L - Looking Ahead
O - Ocean of tears..............................O - Optimistic
V - Valley of Death.............................V - Visionary
E - End of life...................................E - Enjoying life
One perspective is of those persons..jo bechare pyar mein sataye hote hain... aur dusra unka jo pyar mein naye naye aaye hote hain... :P in short end result is same of both the type of persons and that leads to the first perspective only...I always consider love a beautiful experience...in Hindi..if I try to say..it can be termed as "Meetha Dard"...it is like everything going your way...just everything...you start loving yourself much more than u earlier did...you have got something to think upon...in a night when u go to bed..u r satisfied by just a thought that someone must be dreaming of you or someone must be thinking of you...loving someone is still the simplest reason why you find yourself complete....but and I put a big but here...what I have seen in my life and what i experienced...I have to categorized the love into three categories below...and fortunately and unfortunately all three bend towards pessimism...
1. Love from both the sides - As I told u earlier...there are very rare couples present in this world who loves each other like anything...somewhere either lust or infatuation keeps the upper hand...these type of couples carry their relationships for certain number of days, months or at max say couple of years... well considering this to be true that both love each other and they are truly made for each other...but somewhere these relationships tends to end on a sad note either due to family pressures...or some religious differences and blah blah... sad...but true...I have seen only two couples in my life who has passed this phase..and are living happily there after...and rest either still crying...or still trying to adjust with their spouses.....
2. One person love and other one has just infatuation - Simply worst scenario...and the person who truly loves...is literally screwed up...as he/she tries each and everything to make the other person happy...and try to keep things alive...without knowing the fact that opposite person is not having any real interest in him/her...and the worst part is that the opposite person himself does not know whether he has love or infatuation....and this ends up dramatically when suddenly the person who has infatuation realize that he/she was never in love... and everything shatters like "DHADAAAMMM"...... 40-50% cases have been the same... and few people managed to move ahead with their lives and few hang on there without making any good to themselves... khair god bless them...
3. You love but don't express - I don't know but I like this very much....as at least it helps in continuing the friendship with other person..as someone says "friendship is a name given to love when u don't want to lose it" ..but few may criticize this by arguing the fact that if u can't express..then its not love...and people can say that u may find that the opposite person also loves you but in my own view, it is better to give everything to the person u love without telling him/her...u will not regret when he/she leave you as u never took initiative...i know this is a negative approach and should be avoided completely but practically speaking things go really worse...
In the end, i just like to make one comment...writing about love and feeling love are two different things altogether...its really difficult to pen down your feelings....you simply can't describe...you will just keep on flying high and high...like you just had six tequila shots..in one go...and when this hangover ends..then only you start writing about it... :)
God bless all who are in love...and may their relationships continue forever and they live happily ever after...and those who are broken heart...move ahead....life doesn't end at one person only...
well love...as far as I know about love...there are very rare instances where true love exists..and I am still to come across such couple who are deeply and truly in love with each other....and please mind my words..I am talking of love and not infatuation... infatuation is something which u can have anytime in life with anyone... when u r in school u can have infatuation on your class teacher... while in class any beautiful gal/handsome boy may grab your attention... ;)
Well coming on to the topic..A writer's view of love..one question came to my mind....can I write about love?? as earlier mentioned..my few friends has motivated me to write on this topic...and few says u can't write as u have never felt it... quite confused...i questioned them... "Is love a topic to discuss or a feeling which can not be described???"they can't answer...and I don't know till date...just trying to find the answer by the way of blog only...lemme put my few observations about love...and the end results of the same...
first of all lemme define definition of love in two different perspective...
L - Lake of Sorrows.............................L - Looking Ahead
O - Ocean of tears..............................O - Optimistic
V - Valley of Death.............................V - Visionary
E - End of life...................................E - Enjoying life
One perspective is of those persons..jo bechare pyar mein sataye hote hain... aur dusra unka jo pyar mein naye naye aaye hote hain... :P in short end result is same of both the type of persons and that leads to the first perspective only...I always consider love a beautiful experience...in Hindi..if I try to say..it can be termed as "Meetha Dard"...it is like everything going your way...just everything...you start loving yourself much more than u earlier did...you have got something to think upon...in a night when u go to bed..u r satisfied by just a thought that someone must be dreaming of you or someone must be thinking of you...loving someone is still the simplest reason why you find yourself complete....but and I put a big but here...what I have seen in my life and what i experienced...I have to categorized the love into three categories below...and fortunately and unfortunately all three bend towards pessimism...
1. Love from both the sides - As I told u earlier...there are very rare couples present in this world who loves each other like anything...somewhere either lust or infatuation keeps the upper hand...these type of couples carry their relationships for certain number of days, months or at max say couple of years... well considering this to be true that both love each other and they are truly made for each other...but somewhere these relationships tends to end on a sad note either due to family pressures...or some religious differences and blah blah... sad...but true...I have seen only two couples in my life who has passed this phase..and are living happily there after...and rest either still crying...or still trying to adjust with their spouses.....
2. One person love and other one has just infatuation - Simply worst scenario...and the person who truly loves...is literally screwed up...as he/she tries each and everything to make the other person happy...and try to keep things alive...without knowing the fact that opposite person is not having any real interest in him/her...and the worst part is that the opposite person himself does not know whether he has love or infatuation....and this ends up dramatically when suddenly the person who has infatuation realize that he/she was never in love... and everything shatters like "DHADAAAMMM"...... 40-50% cases have been the same... and few people managed to move ahead with their lives and few hang on there without making any good to themselves... khair god bless them...
3. You love but don't express - I don't know but I like this very much....as at least it helps in continuing the friendship with other person..as someone says "friendship is a name given to love when u don't want to lose it" ..but few may criticize this by arguing the fact that if u can't express..then its not love...and people can say that u may find that the opposite person also loves you but in my own view, it is better to give everything to the person u love without telling him/her...u will not regret when he/she leave you as u never took initiative...i know this is a negative approach and should be avoided completely but practically speaking things go really worse...
In the end, i just like to make one comment...writing about love and feeling love are two different things altogether...its really difficult to pen down your feelings....you simply can't describe...you will just keep on flying high and high...like you just had six tequila shots..in one go...and when this hangover ends..then only you start writing about it... :)
God bless all who are in love...and may their relationships continue forever and they live happily ever after...and those who are broken heart...move ahead....life doesn't end at one person only...
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